Sooooo..... things are happening around me at an astounding rate and I feel the need to make the long short and then I can get started on the normal every day grind.
Soooooooooooo..... As you guessed, we started talking on the internet, emails back and forth and then we added each other to Facebook... then there were long conversations in chat.... loads and loads of pictures sent back and forth (ab und zu). Which then led to phone calls that were funny because he didnt speak much englisch and I not much deutsch... THANK TPTB for google translator and all its faults!
After a few months I suggested that I had urlaub (vacation/holiday) coming and was already thinking of coming to Germany before we met. He tells me to come, and stay with him!!!! I was soooo elated and happy!!! On cloud nine. I asked how long.... is immediate response was '2 weeks'... :)
Bought my ticket and flew to Germany in July of 2013. We met and it was that immediate 'click', you know... that click. For two weeks, we laughed and smiled and I was amazed at Germany. The people where wonderful and welcoming, the food absolutely delisch!!! I met his friends, his daughter, family.... and I felt like I had found a place I could call home.
At the end of two weeks, I was very heart heavy. I did not want to return to the USA but I knew I had to. AND..... there was no talk over staying or meeting again. I got the age old answer when I brought it up, 'Wir werden sehen (We will see).' So, I packed up my things, my gifts for loved ones back home, and he drove me to the airport on Aug 6th. I tried so hard not to get teary eyed or cry when we said goodbye but when he grabbed my face and gave me a kiss goodbye, he was also crying.... let the river flow....
On the plane I sat solemnly and read a letter from his best friend's daughter... I cried myself to sleep. In my heart I found a man I could spend my days with. We saw eye to eye. We FIT. And yes, I knew then that I loved him. But.... he is in Germany and I am in the USA, half way around the world. And again it hovered over me that there was no talk of the future. Okay, got it..... good experience, one I will treasure forever. And so began my bittersweet resolve.
5 days later, he calls.... Wie geht's? (How are you?)... I tell him I am okay, lost but okay... I ask him how he is doing and and he says the same... then I ask 'Ohne mich? (Without me?)' and thats when he tells me that he is not doing good, that he wants me to come back and be with him in Deutschland. So on August 11 2013 (all be it over the phone) he asked me to marry him!!!!! CLOUD NINE!!! I say yes but I also tell him I have to talk to my sons first.
October 2013, I sell everything I own aside from what I packed of my life in 3 boxes and 4 bags, find a good home for my wonderful dogs (the breed is not allowed in Germany without hefty hefty insurance and expensive registration AND agressiveness testing that I knew they would not pass),.... there are not many in this world who know what it is like to pack 40 years of your life into 3 boxes and 4 bags. CRAZY!!! But I did it! Waved goodbye to my family and friends, took a last look at the house I sold, drove away..... and flew to Germany. My new home.... my new life.... my new everything.
Man what a culture shock!
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